knowing how to be loved
I'll probably die alone 'cause I'm lazy. My story actually goes way back. As a kid, I really didn't have a problem with being alone and also probably dying alone. I even used to brag about it, Yeah I know, not necessarily a genius I was. Don't exactly know when and why but at some point, I started questioning my approach against romantic relationships. It turned out I don't have any approach because I don't have any romantic relationships. Don't know why but it's just so much easier not to care. I mean I really was always avoiding all kinds of feelings because it is so exhausting to feel, you know what I mean, right? You would have to introduce yourself to a brand new person, not just some "Hi, my name is blablabla and I study blablabla nice to meet you!". you would have to really introduce yourself. You have to make sure that the person knows you for who you really are. I don't know if it is just my crazy or everyone has it ...